Tag: babies

It has taken me a long time to get to this point to be able to put music to this very special birthday…I’m glad I can do this for him b/c this is his day that he changed the world forever and he’s earned that…A Mother never forgets.

Happy Birthday Sean Patrick.  Today would’ve been your 42nd birthday.   I remember our  short time together every year.   I know you see your family down here and are looking after us all.   We will all be together again someday, and I will get to hold you and tell you how much you taught me from our short time together.  After you were born, you changed our world forever.  You were here on this earth for only a short time but you were here for exactly how long you were suppose to be.  God took you with him and now you are perfect. 

Sean Patrick, March 21, 1984…He didn’t know how short his life was.  He only knew he lived a perfect life because all he knew was that he was loved by his mom & dad. Blessings today on your heavenly birthday … You will never be forgotten because your birthday changed the world forever.  It changed our world for good.  Your family will always love you.  

I remember the day after we lost you and waking up.  It was over and I felt very empty.  I got out of bed and I remember going and looking out the window down at all the people.  I was so sad.  Everyone was just walking so fast, going no where I thought.  Really what was so important.  I wanted the world to stop because my world had.  I wanted to cry and yell at everyone.  Why is life still going on?  Everything looked so normal, but it wasn’t for me.  Life can be so cruel sometime.  I was 24 years old but my innocence was gone.  When your baby dies a part of your soul goes with him, yet part of him stays with you.  I would never again be that young mother who walked into the hospital that Sunday night.

Well it was time to move on now.  I remember wanting to go home and be with my baby Michael Jr. and your dad.  The hospital chaplain came into my room and said that they would take care of you and I did not have to worry about it, but I said I did.  You were our baby and we would take care of the arrangements.  Michael told me not to worry about anything and that he would handle the funeral arrangements.  The same priest who married us come out to the gravesite.   It was a cold, gray rainy March day.  We buried you with your Grandpapa Frain.  I didn’t have a lot of people there because I was too sad.  It is hard to see a small little box that you know your baby was in.  It was hard burying you and letting go.  Saying goodbye was very hard.

I became an awesome mom that day. I learned not to take anything for granted ever. I learned about unconditional love, really. My faith in God grew strong and I learned how to accept his will. Maybe not agree with it, but accept it and know that someday I would understand it all. I learned how fragile life is and to appreciate all that I have. I went on to have 3 more children. I just gave my life to God, and let him handle it. It worked out exactly how it was suppose too.   Blessings to all my family, we have an angel watching over all of us…