I really like my smile. When I see it, I feel so happy b/c I am right where I want to be and I feel the best when he’s next to me with his arm around me. He has always been the real deal ❤ I love you oh and of course I have my Blackhawk’s Sweater on ❤ It’s almost time for the puck dropping Y A Y ❤ Winter Classic baby with my guys Connie & Matthew !!!!
I can’t believe the end of summer is almost here. You have heard me talk about my 40/60 journey. That was the journey I’m going to be taking of going back in time and re-visiting then and now memories. Because next year it’s my 40th wedding anniversary and I’m turning 60. I didn’t just want to celebrate that with one day. I thought it deserved the whole year.
I was right about the journey thing, but maybe just focus on the 40’s that was my marriage. I realized the first 20 years didn’t have that many great memories so I don’t need to relive those because they just aren’t worth remembering. By that I mean, I really wasn’t a part of that family. I just didn’t know it until I got much older. Then everything became crystal clear.
Yesterday I was going through some of my older pictures with me and my sister’s and father and they ended up in the garbage because I don’t need them anymore. My friend told me when I go through pictures, I should save only the ones that bring me joy. When my sharpie pen and the garbage can bring me more joy than the picture, I guess the memory just isn’t that important and definitely not worth saving or sharing.
I realized that this might not be such a great journey to take after all. Then after further review, I thought this might just be where I finally throw away all of those bad memories, a new start. Time to move forward to the next chapter, turn the page. It felt really good to get rid of a lot of junk and I’ve only just begun. I realized the only thing I’m going to keep was memories of things that brought me great joy. Everything else does not need to make it into my future.
This is one of my husband’s favorite songs. I’m sure this will be in a lot of the coming post in my 40’s journey…
The bad memories do make up part of my life, but just a very small part and I won’t let them live in my life anymore rent free. I’m space cleaning for more good and remembering the positive because there was so much more of that. So when I come across a picture that makes me want to cry, out comes the sharpie and the scissors so I can make a pig face or devil horns before I cut it up (in case it survives the land fill/garbage dump) 😉 . No more tears, no more sadness. This will be my happy journey…
Weekend was fun at the baseball game. We did get rained out and left but they made a comeback and won so for my August memories on my 40 year journey will start at the baseball game which is where it should start because that’s where it all started 42 years ago.