Moving on…Well that’s a loaded statement. Who hasn’t moved on. So many times in my life, so many different scenes when life just says, “Let it go, move on !!” But what if you don’t want to or you just can’t ?? I just say that’s when I’m stuck. I have a great friend. He is the husband. We are both in the same place, but we view it totally different than each other. He takes is more personally than I do. I look at it as necessary evolution, a process that has to play out. It’s like the wave that just has to finish rolling in. Something that is just going to have to work itself out. Meanwhile we just deal, igging it out. No pity parties here, does no good. I’m pretty sure that we are having a much better time in our lives, which is a good thing. The first time it’s a mistake, the second time it’s a decision.
My gift that get’s me through E V E R Y T H I N G is from God. It is the gift of grace. I also have a friend called the Holy Spirit and his gift to me is faith, a very strong faith. No I don’t go to church every Sunday, and I really couldn’t tell you the last time I was there. However, my relationship with God is one that is very deep and sincere. He is the first one I think about when I open my eyes in the morning and he’s the last one I talk to at night before I close my eyes and sleep for the night. He is always there.
Church is a building with a community inside of it. I am not ready at this time in my life to invest in that community. I wish I was, but I have trust issues and I’m just not ready to go there. If I can’t be all in then I’ll just worship with God in my personal space. It’s unfortunate, but it’s where I’m at at this moment. This is my cross and I will carry it.
It is the holiday season and I am going to make the best of it. I am blessed with a husband who worships me, kids who love me and stay close to me, and friends that never let me go. For this I am truly thankful for. I have a beautiful home, 2 really great dogs and a brand new little kitten, Louie ❤ I have my health, the husband has a great job. Now really just those few things, that little bit of gratitude there is no way I could not be happy or thankful.
So this week of Thanksgiving, I’m going bow my head and say, “Thank you, for all of my blessings.” I hope everyone else will do the same. It makes a big difference in life when you do. Blessings ❤
Oh and this one’s for you Connie 😉 Do you remember, of course you do. I ❤ you…