It is hard for me to write this week. It’s turning out not to be a great week. So just for that reason, I am going to write. I have found that doing what is hard for you probably will be the best for you. Power through it, and just do it. This is a moment in time. Nothing lasts forever. What doesn’t kill you, will make you stronger. Play the reel through your mind of positive thoughts. It’s most likely a form of prayer, maybe God is listening even though it is not the formal type of prayer that you are use too. I go to my gratitude journal. That is hard, but it is so helpful. It reminds me that even with all that is going on, I still have much to be grateful for.
I have a husband who loves me more than life itself. We have been married for 36 years, and he is just the strongest person I have ever met. God brought us together because he knew we would need each other for the long haul. He’s just the best. I am also a very strong person, although at times lately I have felt that I am not going to make it through this. But something just keeps pulling back up. Maybe it is my faith in God, maybe it is the Holy Spirit or the Angel’s holding me up so that I can take that next step. Go get in the shower, go clean a bathroom, go write. Just get out of that room that is not going to do you any good. You know the room, the room we have all been in. The room where there is no hope, no sunshine, no place to rest you head and put away your problems. No friends, nothing to do. The room just screams, “Get out of here !!!!” The room where you are not going to feel any better about your life.
Well today is Tuesday and it is cold. Winter is wearing me down along with other things. But we all have other things, and we just get through them. I have a very wise young adult son who has given me a lot of good advice lately. He tells me that, “I let certain people live in my head rent free.” He tells me that, “Mom, you can either let go, or be dragged !!!” He is so spot on with those words of wisdom. I don’t want to be the kind of mom who leans too hard on her adult kids for support. I never have been that way. I have always been a problem solver, someone who helps others get through things. I don’t want to be that person who needs. Because I don’t, I can do this. It’s just hard sometime. It’s kind of isolating, but I guess that’s why I have you. I have you, whoever you are that comes and at least looks at my blog. Maybe you don’t read it word for word, but I know that at least 60 people saw it yesterday, so I’m not that invisible.
Well I feel better already. I already made a hair appt. for just a style. I got it cut a couple of weeks ago, and she went so short that I have been having trouble making it look good. Maybe I’m just being too fussy. Really that sound like a 1st world problem. I am going to go dancing this afternoon with Houston and he is such a good dancer/teacher and a coach. I’m learning ballroom dancing and I guess at the end of the course we are going to perform the, “Tango,” omg. That probably will look interesting, but he says he won’t let me look bad. So I believe him, and he is such a nice guy he always hug me and is very upbeat. So for all of you out there who have something and I’m pretty sure that is a lot of us, just do something positive, something that will make you feel better. It’s just one day, a moment in time. Believe in yourself and have a good day.
Oh one more thing I got reminded of this morning while taking my husband to work. We were sitting at the red light waiting for it to go green, when all of the sudden right before our very eyes I heard a loud explosion. It was like everything was moving in slow motion. Yes, that’s right two cars not being defensive driver’s, probably rushing to get to work (that’s the problem with living in the city everyone is in such a damn hurry) slammed into each other. Someone turning left at the light as it was going yellow/red and the oncoming car traveling at too high rate of speed either couldn’t stop or just didn’t. Anyways both cars were totaled. In a split second there whole day had been change, and not for the better. Both cars appeared to be totaled but I don’t think anyone go hurt, just a bit shaken up. Well speaking from my own experience of being in a car accident (Paralyzed on the left side/not permanent, brain contusion & coma for 5 weeks & a couple of months of intense physical therapy) you just don’t know how fast your life can be changed for ever. But not always for the worst, sometimes it’s for the best. Good things do happen, you just have to watch and wait for them and you can’t do that if you are always sitting around in a pity party. So today I wrote myself out of the room. And that’s the way I roll. Just don’t quit.
So here’s the weather forecast for this Tuesday, “Brisk winds to usher in a very brief warm-up.” (Why can’t it be the other way around, “Brisk winds to usher in a very brief cold spell,” okay I’ll stop whining). HI/LO 31/7 Temperatures moderate as gusty winds deliver milder air from the Plains states. So for now my day has been saved from the demon’s who try, try to destroy. If I don’t give-up or give-in, they lose !!! They’ve lost for today, because really that’s all we have is today, right now. So be present and have a good day. Happy Tuesday