Today is Ash Wednesday. This is the start of Lent for us as Catholic’s. I am not going to evangelize, because I think that would be presumptuous of me. I believe the way I do and I love my religion. Things in my life have come and gone. People in my life have come and gone. One thing in my life that I can always count on as sure as the sun will rise and set, (death & taxes too) is that I will always be a part of something bigger than my little life. My Catholic family. I will always have them to walk through this life with.
So today I went to get ashes. This was very difficult for me because I have had a hard year. Well really since July 7th. I have not been able to go to church or say my rosary which has alway brought me such comfort. I just couldn’t go there. I don’t think it was because out of anger. I just couldn’t bring myself to go there. With the start of lent, I just couldn’t imagine not getting ashes. So I just started talking to myself and saying, “Just go, don’t think about it. Just go and have no expectations.” So I just went through all of the motions. I got showered and dressed, hair & make-up too. Well really if I’m going to go into a church I really should look my best in our Lord’s House. I brought my rosary and I went early and said a rosary.
The prayer service started and then we received ashes, “Remember man that you are dust, and to dust you shall return.” The priest makes the sign of the cross with ashes on your forehead. The ashes are the burnt palms from last year’s, “Palm Sunday” I think. One of the reasons I get ashes is because I want the world to know that I am Catholic. This is being part of a very special family. My extended family was shattered years ago, so I don’t have them in my life. My immediate family is having it’s growing pains and the jury is still out on some of them, so that has also been a challenge this year. But I still have my Catholic family which brings has always brought me comfort. I thought too, if I didn’t go and get ashes the devil once again has won. He has separated me from the Lord my God. I was not going to let him win, he didn’t !!!! Amen to that.
This is a time not to give something up, but rather to give back I think. It is true that in giving, we receive. So this lent I am going to try to become a better Catholic, a better person. I am going to say my rosary every day. Give to someone that I do not know, that just looks like they need help with no conditions. No strings attached. I don’t even want to know that I did it. It’s better that way, that’s truly giving unconditionally. I am also going to try to go to church on Sunday and pray with the Catholic Community. It’s better that way. There are also so many things that help you through life and life’s challenges when you are Catholic. I will try and with the Holy Spirit by my side, I should be able to get it done.
Then I can look forward to Easter and the Spring, new beginnings. And if whoever is reading this, I could use all of your prayers in you believe in that. If not just send me some positive thoughts. That’s always a good thing ❤ Happy Wednesday